皮囊 第七季

这一篇评论仅仅，也完全是关于Cassie一个人的。

如果她不曾答应Sid，你不会了解她的未来会怎样。或许Tony那样的人精不是每个人都能做到的，所以几年后，一个工作在餐桌前的Cassie就是一个必然了。

再没有Wow，没有Perfect...

只有欠饱和的画面，一种暮光初起，还带着雾气的氛围始终贯穿着整段故事。比起青春期时的Cassie，那种亮丽清晰的画面变得朦胧又冷淡。

仿佛人生就是如此的不确定，青春的色彩已经退去，如Cassie自己说的那样，一直在等待，曾经拒绝了一个要求，No or forever。

面对着也曾等待，已经堕落的maddie说出的，life is fucked up，Casseie忍不住落下泪来。

是啊，被偷拍又怎样，被偷窥又怎样？只要留下美丽的回忆，仿佛一切都没有白过。

“女人就不能只跟男人做好朋友么？”Cassie问，“当然可以，上过床之后...”maddie吐着烟说。

回到那个曾经响起wild world的场景，Cassie静静的坐在椅子上，接受了同事的鼓励，转身回到家中见了父亲，接过抚养弟弟的重担，接着她继续等待的未来...

没有什么青春不可以被忘，唯有不清不楚的未来才是最让人痛苦的。



PS. 吐槽
EF 24-105mm f/4L IS USM这镜头绝不是个可以偷拍而不被发现的镜头，至少在5D mark III上不行；此外，镜头的价格只是机身的三分之一...好吧，我又脱线了，但是照片拍的真心好，比后来的中画幅拍的强一万倍...

       第七季编剧正一神经病，把naomi和effy俩人性格调换了，堕落太妹effy忽然玩转金融界，好端端的高材生naomi弄成单口相声+癌症，韩剧吗？这么狗血剧情！！！干嘛emily到美国不跟着一起去那生活，不是说：“Really I'd die for you..”吗？却留在伦敦独自die！！！天天傻B颓废喝酒吃大麻，神经病剧情！！！

    但为了这对最爱的拉拉还是继续追剧~
   
    由第一季首播到现在第七季，看着第一部接触的英剧就快剧终，真心舍不得，年龄相仿，感觉和她们一起长大，没想到她们的未来是这么的狗血，真痛心，青春那么苦逼，长大也那么无奈~

     五年前，我上大一，从一个黄土高坡上的小县城考到广外，学外语，为了适应英美国家文化，练听力，我在学校FTP上追起了skins, 当时真不懂怎么资本主义国家的孩子童年那么不幸福，小小年纪就酗酒吸毒乱搞性关系，没有一个正常的温馨的家庭生活。还是我们社会主义好。就像以前看《红与黑》《包法利夫人》《茶花女》那样，整个基调好消沉，资本主义国家，我还真的是一丁点都不羡慕。
    当时先看的第三季，全剧就只喜欢fredie, 他在开学第一天课堂上表白的一幕好浪漫，但Effy后来的表现真叫人……， 哎，effy 的生活一塌糊涂，所以才和cook 一对， 他们两个又可恨又可怜，当时多希望看到effy 和fredie 终成眷属啊，P.S. 配乐很好听，有些剧情本来不是很懂的，给配乐这么一渲染，我好像就似懂非懂了。
    英剧的等待总是很漫长，我接着看了第一第二季，合着effy的哥哥比她还胡来，是叫nick 吧，觉得他很活该，乱搞，还勾引好朋友max，我最喜欢的当然是sid和cassie了吧，他们，和别的孩子的颓废不一样，是可以从他们身上看到希望的那种，cassie不吃饭，让我好心疼，sid很窝囊，当两个人在一起就会变得不一样，爱情的力量就是如此吧，它可以给你希望，给你光明，改变你的生命。呵呵，我童话看太多了。
    第四季出来时，我大三吧，结局出来时我快砸掉电脑了，为什么会这样，社会怎么是这个样子的，很想说脏话，想骂人，成人的世界真的比我们想像的要复杂，要肮脏。真不想长大，不想长大变得和那些成人同流合污。
     第五第六季，看了一集，没感，演员剧情没有深入我的内心，果断弃剧，直到 昨天，在豆瓣英剧排行榜上看到第七季出来，而且还是头四季的老演员，我立马加班加点把六集看完了。
     谈谈感受，五年了，我好像第一次真正看懂了，不知是因为我长大了成熟了，理解能力强了，还是因为中国的成人世界和英国的越来越接近了，所以我终于深有同感了。职场的潜规则，人吃人，看到effy穿职业装努力在工作应酬，真的很不习惯，我们都会因一时错乱迷了双眼，忽略了身边更重要的一切，最后的牢狱之灾反倒是件好事，监狱，医院，精神病院，戒毒所，这些好像本来就是effy的归宿似的，至少，她找到自己了，可喜可贺。cassie， 还记得她的“wow”吗，那个瘦瘦地总不肯吃饭的女孩终于胖了一点点了，很开心能再次看到她，而且她还是那么的……pure, 那种灵气还在，而且更加懂事，为家庭承担责任，恩，好孩子，我喜欢。 cook, 这个我曾经最鄙视的人，进了贩毒团伙，搞了老大的女朋友，被发现以后带着两位女友亡命天涯。但他还是改变了，而且，是我看到的这一季改变最大，人物刻画的最好的一个，至于他的未来会怎样，我倒是放心了，因为他已经彻头彻尾地长大了。

不是最早看skins，却也看了五年了，也是追过最长的一部剧了，也是看的第一部英剧。
记得第一次看这剧的时候，心里直呼，英剧竟然尺度这么大，后来才懂了一个别人讲的道理“英国面前，美国只是假开放。”
记得一辆公交风驰而过，将tony和他未讲完的话撞飞；
记得手里拿着水枪和药，在山顶公园长椅上翩翩起舞，想要自杀的cassie
记得"傻乎乎"的sid唱着wild world
记得chris和jal的生死恋，葬礼上的"Fuck It"
记得在纽约街道上奔跑的cassie
…………
记得依着门，却拉着手的naomi和emily
记得不屑世俗的cook大魔王
记得effy马路上对着呼啸而过的车辆大喊"I'm not afraid"
记得naomi的那句"I love you so much that it's killing me"
…………
记得rich从重金属到和grace的小清新
记得liv的种种辛酸，怒扇mini，和rich在grace墓前的蹦蹦跳跳
记得rich听到孩子啼哭声的那句"bye"
…………
现在，
看见两人在医院外，两个相依，只能听见风声和雪的声音
看见emily卷着身在naomi怀中哭泣，看见effy一个人背着墙流泪
然后看见从泰晤士河放眼望去的冬日伦敦景象
看见了和第二季结束一样effy神秘的一笑
…………
看见cass再也忍不住，落泪
看见cass那一张张美翻了的照片
再也听不见cass的wow，取而代之的是低压着的背景旋律
看见cass从父亲手中接过rueben
看见cass坐在伦敦公园的一把长椅上，就像布里斯托尔的那把长椅上
…………
看见cook手上那个cook的纹身
看见犹豫不知是否跳进泳池的cook
看见cook的嘶吼大喊
看见举枪不定的cook
看见最后在雪中越走越远的cook

直到最后一片白芒的雪
skins的词打在屏幕上，不再是黑屏后再出现的制作者名单
不是每一季结束后的演员名单
再上tweet上看看，E4的背景图片也已不是skins的宣传照
我才想起
skins真的就这样结束了

我爱skins，不论哪一集，那一代
记得刚看skins时，我什么都不知道，也不知道做什么
现在，有了目标，有了理想
不是想说“skins改变了我”之类的话
只是想说：Skins,见证了我的成长
或许这就是我喜欢看英剧的原因
当我多年以后的某一天再翻出她来看的时候
我会回想起当年的我有何感触，生活又是怎样
skins正是我对青春的一份寄托
累的时候，乏了的时候，可以拿出来说，她陪伴过我的青春
或许有些矫情
时间真的在改变我们
想想当初看skins我们的感受，现在呢？
想想当初看skins我们的模样，再看看现在。
不过
time's changing everyone？
NO
time HAS changed everyone.
AND more
time's still changing everyone
and
bye

Effy's going to jail, Naomi's going to die, Emily's going to be even worse than death. Most of the viewer of the last episode of skins, cannot cope with tragic endings like that, including me at least for a while. For me, personally, it's not the death or prison that bothers the most, it is the non-dramatic way of telling almost nonchallently, of the most tragic ending that one can think of is happening right in front our eyes while pretend not a big deal of it. Instead of showing meanings to us, all is simply impled by. Those viewers seek for some kinda closure of the whole skins series aren't gonna get it, for there left so many lose ends; those who hope for drama aren't gonna get it, disappointed by its realistic telling of dramatic event and its anti-clamax of an ending; Those who expect twists and turns would surprise and flip at the extreme lack of it. Despite all that, we should decide to love it, after all that is the end we get in life.

The first thing needs to be clarified is that television becomes no less inferior than literature these days, at least for some good television shows like Skins, it is true. A fact we need to come to terms with. And as no sensible readers would curse the writer and demand him to rewrite an ending that he doesn't like, television is not an negotiation as well. For those who think it is, well you are so self-involved to hook on the delusion of it. That's the sole lie the life-shows nowadays are depending on you to believe, a conviction that the power's in your own hand. For Christ sake, what a convenient flattering that is! As sensible viewers, we see right through it, we accept what we got and try to appreciate the beauty of it.

After all, Skins fire. As the title suggests, it is about lights, destruction and rebirth. And a terrible beauty is born. Adulthood is such a terrible beauty. Especially for Effy, once aloof, indifferent, omniscient goodness in her little circle, washed by fire, and reborn into human. Of course, there's some sacrifice along the way. So walking out of paradise full of drugs, parties and hormones, here she is, taking three steps of becoming human as we know it.

Step one, compassion.
"I want to feel something, I want to be hurt! Come and hit me!" The girl ran into the middle of the street and exclaimed a death wish in front of world. That's near the ending of Effy's teenage years, almost the last we see her. Since then, apparently, the wish has come true. In fire, we see Effy's feeling, invisible as it always is, all over the place. The way she bites her finger nails watching Naomi on stage doing shitty comedy and being laughed at, the way she cries when being yielded at the truth of Naomi's illness, the way she goes blank hearing the doctor said the drug doesn't work and the way stares Naomi lying on the CT scan thereafter runs out of room, and the way she panics holding Naomi in her arms puking all over the place-- we never have seen Effy going through all levels of emotions before, not merely for herself, but for her best friend, for Naomi and Emily. With herself, she can be tough, takes it on her own: "I am fine", when Naomi asks she used three words as such to conclude it, even if she's not. Far from doing nothing, as Naomi accuses her to be, she's doing everything she could to hold it together, being tough for her, can't stop feeling for her but has to conceal it for her. That is not sth she told us, That's sth we sense. For those who love Naomi and Emily with such a bias to take in everything they say, myself included, might look beyond the surface and see they are blocked by own individuality as well. In fact, compassion is all Effy is in fire, "she has such big love inside of her, just needs to be let out, and the possibility to let out scares the hell of her" Effy's mom knows her nature well. Well, at least she smiles at the end, typical Effy smile, as if to say "you don't know me at all", or maybe this time, it says: "I can feel after all, i feel something". Compassion we know that is what makes us all human, and from the moment she feels it, Effy is no longer mysterious and inappoachable fairie, she is one of us, human.

Step two, mortality.
Naomi's death really provided an occasion for mourning, mourning for the beauty being tragically destroyed. It is sad, true. But it is sensible, as we consider it. After all it becomes a tradition of skins, to kill one favorite character at a time of generation. And for generation 2, Freddie is definitely not the most favorite one. It is the thing had between Naomi and Emily that makes the most wonderful thing that the make-believe world of skins had created for us. And let's face it, the most beautiful thing as it always, is irreplacable. There's no carnation for that, no reborn in it (as they are lesbians) therefore, it is immortal. This is the reason they can't survive the mortal world of adulthood. One of them has to be destroyed, and the other along with it. And as if killing our favorite couple isn't cruel enough, Effy needs to witness and learn from the tragic of all this, to see the only positive unyielding love that exists in her past world being worn out by an incurable disease of mankind. From the moment her best friend told her the illness, Effy knows it's gonna go down like this, she knows it too well, so she can't stand watching Naomi pretend like nothing and make fun of herself in a comedy, yet she complains in the most minute ways, pissing Naomi about the rent which essentially means the burden all weighs down on her- she needs to be the rock, and it's fucking hard. Neither can she offer comforts to her like innocent Dom, cause she knew it better, the truth hurts so much that she can't fathom a way to act it otherwise. Again, like I said, Mortality takes its toll, for Effy, it is the farewell paid to the old world of her past with Naomily in it, a burning ritual she has to experience descending to the world of works in her fantasy, a brave new world of men. And Naomily is the sacrifice, given that Homosexuality implies in literature a longing for death in itself. The poet and beauty must die, so the rest of us can keep on living.

Step three, helplessness.
At times we can't help but wonder why things always go terribly wrong with Effy, no matter how fucking together they all seem in the first glimpse! The onmiscent soul of this childhood circle stumbles way out of their idealistic small world and find she's merely a tool used by more onmiscent forces way sophisticated than she is. Helplessness is the condition of humanity. It breaks her charm, make her helpless. Emily says: "We idolized her." Cook's fucking Dad: "You are too pretty for your own good, that's why you destroy everything you touch." Such are the contrast between surface and core of Effy. Lights and destruction all sealed in one, waiting to be born. And in skins fire, it burst alive. It is interesting to note that in retrospect, everyone around Effy ends in various tragic ways: her parents separated, her brother got hit by a car, Freddie got killed and Cook went down for his revenge, and we thought Naomily is the only exception for they are special, how naive we are! There's a certain helpless gravity for tragic in Effy that makes her so appealing and at once so heartending. It almost seems nothing stays with her, under circumstances like that one almost certainly can't help but hold itself to blame. God knows how she serectly took the fault herself for all lost in life! In front of the mass of life, for the first time, we see her had no clue about what to do? It is Naomi in sick bed push some sense in her again, "Seriously what do we got, Effy? Well, I am going to die, what you gonna do? " That probably reminds her who she is and should be. After that, we see her picking up Emily at airport, possibly she called her up and reveal the truth as she should in the first place; then she made deal with victoria to tell on boss under sole condition that dom is untouched. She made the right choice eventually, as she used to be. Better late than never, taking responsibility for what she did like a fucking adult. It takes her edge off, which still makes me angry, not at her, but at the fucking real world of ours that rounded with such a flame in the first place. Yet the most helpless as it always was in Effy is the fact that she has to play the help all her life, which means no one helps Her, that she is truly THE most helpless one. That leads to off-putting love affair with her boss. But seriously cut her some slack, please. Leave aside the fact that boss is adulthood look-alike of Freddie, probably an unintended happy coincidence, she's lonely, and extremely so after a load of pressure landed on her, taking care of best friend mentally and financially, watchig them being happy and all that. What do we expect her to do, instead of cutting herself and going mental in the bathroom, isn't it much healthy distraction to find a man to love and entertain a little fantasy that somebody got her back? Dom and Boss, she picked the one who pays her rent, so that Naomi didn't have to. And that, for me, makes character of Eff, most lovable and lamentable beyond all.

The Effy who used to smile her mysterious smiles that says "you don't know me at all", still smiles at us in the end. Is it sort of mock or self mock? for many a thousand viewers shall this, her mock, mock out of their retardness after seeing all she went through still don't see who the hell she is; mock herself from dreaming our world to be hers therefore making effort to it; mock grown-ups down, and others yet ungotten and unborn that shall have cause to curse the city that bereaves her Eden and beloved from earth.

Skins fire comes to an end. The followings, in this order, comes pure and rise. It is interesting to note that in the trailor the order has been rearenged: it should be rise, fire, and pure. That is to say the actually serie begins in the medres, classic order of story telling. And it should be expected to return to rise in a circle, suggesting to a eternal reoccurrence of the proccess. Therefore, we have reasons to believe fire is the brutalest one, perhaps things would pick up tone a bit: in pure, it might smooth out a bit, going for depth; rise probably going to be full of struggles but worth it. But eventually, as the trailor so artisticaly hints at: three individual under one skin, going through phases, transforming into one another's life. Step by step, we walk out of ourself, into hers, into his then eventually back to our own skins. All change and changed utterly, a terrible beauty is born.

有一句话送给导演编剧们，来形容我看了第七季的心情：
不作死就不会死。

第七季真的很烂。可是我还是没忍住给了四星。

我说它烂，不是因为它把我最喜欢的两个女人设定成一个送进监狱，一个永远孤独。也不是因为cook大王最后两集还要作死，搞了个让无数人忍不住骂鸟东西的结局。我当然知道成长是必须的，不是每个青春期少男少女都会永远喝酒抽大麻读萨特光屁股一堆烦恼又无忧无虑无所畏惧。我也理解最终季拍成这样的纪念意义和良苦用心。

我只是觉得它搞砸了。它的前六季是靠着青春，靠着叛逆恶心凌乱，靠着纯洁自由而让人穷追不舍，可是这一季，它只剩下无奈了。它的故事讲得衣冠楚楚却乱七八糟，完全不符合英剧气质，失去了最大的优点。

给四星五星的，有几个不是因为脑补能力足够强，怀旧情绪太泛滥？


但是至少，它给了Eff，Cass和Cook一个完整的成熟世界。它表达了一种成长和妥协，同时给人物设置了新的弱点和矛盾，一种成人式的困难和成人式的解决方法，但却仍然保持青春期的视角（主人公内在的视角）去理解这些问题。从这个意义上来说，第七季似乎也总要拍成这种样子。因为我们都想不出来更好的样子了。

无论怎样长大，无论变成什么样的人，人总是会后悔的。

无论Skins最终季拍成什么样子，我们总是会一边叫骂一边流泪。